Needs.

Its one of those times. One of those days. You know when you are just like 'Fuckin hell.'... to everything that happens? Yeah.

Everything in college takes so much effort.
Its been fun this last 2 months.
And I'm starting to get my act together...
...make friends, be more comfortable with myself, chill out a bit.
But with that there's always consequences.
There's just not enough TIME in the world.
Well, I say that. Since I got home at 4, all I've done is write a page on Billy's character from the Green Mile. My essay is due in Monday.
I need to spend more effort on things.
I LOVE college life. I love the new feeling of the lessons daily.
But its sinking in now. These are A Levels.
I need to try. I need to study. I'm not going to coast like I did for most of my GCSEs.
I need to try and be less ditzy.For example, I just remembered that I forgot to have tea tonight.
I need to do stuff for myself and try harder.
Fuck, I need to stop helping other people coast and get by by myself.
Okay, too harsh.
But I need to spend a bit more time on myself. Well, studying.
Need to have more nights out. Have lots planned.
Need to organise town.
I can't spend EVERY single night on the internet.
Need to vary my life.
Need to learn film techniques, spend a bit of time on what I hope to be my life's work.
Need to chill out, step back, and sort myself out.

Needs. Needs. Needs.

Phew. Sorry if i've put a dampener on your night. But I think its good that i'll be able to look back on this in a year. See if i've followed my own advice.