Saturday, 16 May 2009

'I bite off anything that i can chew..'

Jerk It Out - The Caesars.
Chooooon!

God. This must be the longest i haven't blogged in. And its only gonna be a quick update, because i need to revise.

So hai der.

This week has been full of ups and downs.
Shit's happened.
Raves have happened.
Melancholy times have happened.
Times when i just can't fucking wait to get away from everything and start my life
Even though, sadly i know i'm not strong enough for that.

Hey, a girl can dream can't she?

Last night i went Katy's.
Where i didn't drink much...
...Well... that much. I downed water before bed. So no hangover.
But at least an experience has been ticked off the list.

Today feels like a sunday. Shitsticks.
I should revise for my maths GCSE and my english lit GCSE.
But i've just got my internet back. And i was going fucking mental without being able to vent all of this complete shit out.

I remember pretty much everything from last night. One thing that i look back on now is the shaking and panicking in the middle of the night. I wasn't lying. I'm pretty posi that i'm going to fail. So i'm going to be crabby all week. Which probably means i'll say 'fuck' a lot. Especially in facebook statuses, as annoying as that is. Sorry guys. I fail. A lot.

Deep breaths.

I've had a chippy 3 times this week.
Left school at least once a day.
This study leave shit is okay :)
Pick lessons i've gone into etc.
Shouldn't have missed physics twice though.
I'm a fucking prick.

A sunburnt, and melancholy drunk. That is going to be me all summer.
Fuck it all.

Fucking problems. They don't mean shit.

1 comment:

  1. you won't fail
    i think you need quite a few hugs when i see you.. feel like i've kinda neglected people this week..i've hardly seen you all properly like not had a propa chat with you since monday.
    and thats a pretty long time.

    i love you a lot and summer shall be awesome..exams will be over and everything.. stuff to look forward to init hunnie!!

    loooveeyouu :):):):) xxxxxxxxxx

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